Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Summer...It Turns Me Upside Down

"Magic," The Cars

Most of the time when I run, I find myself going over my internal to-do list, envisioning myself using Inspector Gadget-like powers of productivity upon my return home; swiffering the kitchen, scrubbing the bathrooms, and reading an entire section of the paper within the first hour back from pavement pounding. Other times during my run, my brain wanders into more intellectually profound territory (Does Rihanna or Beyonce sing "Halo"?) Regardless, I constantly depend on my iPod to keep my feet moving and my brain occupied. This player has all kinds of theme-based playlists, many mixes specifically made for running, however more often than not I find myself putting the entire iPod on random shuffle. True, there are a number of songs that I fast-forward (Tim's techno disasters and Richard Marx's "Right Here Waiting" are not sufficient running material), however it's a great way for me to come across music I have nearly forgotten. Yesterday, The Cars "Magic" came blaring into my headphones, and the beat was a perfect pick-me-up at an otherwise tough spot during the uncomfortable heat of the San Diego summer.

(That paragraph? A --perhaps unnecessary-- explanation as to where today's post title came from).

San Diego Summer: Operation 2009 has been near-perfect so far. We've spent lots of time with friends and family, read a few books, gone on a number of ocean swims, unsuccessfully tried to find new ways to cool down our apartment (thanks, landlord, for cutting down the ONLY tree that offered ANY solace of shade into our now oven-like abode), and found a bike frame in the dumpster and re-built the cruiser. Well, wait. That last one was just Tim:




Speaking of Tim, his bachelor party was last weekend. They went fishing all day Saturday, and then went out Saturday night. According to the slices of memory he can hazily piece together, he says they had an incredible time. Three of Tim's best friends (and groomsmen) generously flew in from all over the US, Chris was able to come down, and Chuck fished on Saturday as well. I know Tim was so grateful.







I really have no words for the toilet set-up, however:



We had a low-key weekend; Melissa and Koz came by to visit, we went to a graduation party, and spent quite a bit of time at the beach. Koz came bearing Nixon presents, and reminded me yet again why we love him:




It's July, and I'm currently right in the middle of my second work-free summer. Being a teacher is full of bright and fulfilling moments all school year long, and I am already having pangs of excitement for my next new set of students. However, summer's off are the most incredible gift, and I wish this was a luxury in every person's job. I figure, I'm allowed a little brag-room, seeing as how a stranger looking at my W-2s would assume I work at a retail store. But sleeping in, relaxing with the paper, coffee, and a DVR-ed episode of Law & Order: SVU in the mornings, taking the dog on long and overdue walks, laying on the beach with a book in hand, and late night glasses of wine with no early-morning consequences are all indulgences that make my meager salary more than worth it. I guess the fact that I love American Literature and my students helps, too.

"Oh, Earth, you are too wonderful for anybody to realize you. Do any human beings ever realize life while they live it--every,every minute?"
-Our Town, Thornton Wilder

Sunday, July 12, 2009

You Know I've Always Been a Dreamer

"Take it to the Limit," The Eagles




Someone once told me Don Williams' song "Good Ole Boys Like Me" paints a strong picture of my dad's life. With interest, I listened to the song and heard the lyrics "...With Thomas Wolfe whispering in my head." At the time, my dad was breezing through Wolfe's Look Homeward, Angel, spouting off memorable quotes and willing me to read it next. In the next stanza, Williams muses:

Nothing makes a sound in the night like the wind does
But you ain't afraid if you're washed in the blood like I was


Again, fitting: My dad's strong Catholic upbringing certainly conjures the idea of being "washed in the blood," regardless of the less-than-cleanly image the line otherwise denotes. But really, my dad's life, passions, and experiences are entirely too varied and decorated to be summed up within the lines of a single song. He's creative, generous, temperamental, passionate, kind, focused, and a fervent follower of his dreams. His accolades are plentiful, but a stranger would never know this due to his humble nature. His strength and heart are inspiring, and I'm so lucky...


But I was smarter than most, and I could choose
Learned to talk like the man on the six o’clock news
When I was eighteen, Lord, I hit the road
But it really doesn't matter how far I go...

I can still hear the soft southern winds in the live oak trees
And those Williams boys they still mean a lot to me;
Hank and Tennessee
I guess we’re all gonna be what we’re gonna be
So what do you do with good ole boys like me?


Friday, July 10, 2009

I've Got Forever on the Tip of My Tongue...

That rebel moon is shinin'
Those stars burn like diamonds
Hell bent on chasin' down that crazy spark
I'll follow you where you're leading
To the first sweet taste of freedom
You got me runnin' baby,
Wild at heart
-Gloriana




37 Days...

Thursday, July 9, 2009

As Long as the Planets Are Turning...

"I'd Do Anything for Love," Meatloaf

Two weekends ago, Chuck and Debbie hosted an amazing pre-wedding celebration/couples shower for Tim and me. We arrived early Saturday morning, and the house was completing decorated: balloons, streamers, posters, a cake with our picture on it, gifts...it was absolutely incredible. Moments later, the girls left for pedicures and the boys went off to spend the day skeet shooting. After the pedicure, Debbie had arranged for a (fully stocked!) limo to whisk the girls off to a full day of wine tasting, appetizers, presents, and fun. I honestly didn't have words; the generosity was overwhelming and we had an absolute blast. At the end of the day, we arrived back to Chuck and Debbie's house to a full-blown party, complete with catered food, a DJ, and a karaoke machine. I had had ENTIRELY too much wine at this point, considered myself Michael Jackson incarnate (too soon for those jokes?) and proceeded to sing (read: butcher) at least a dozen songs, including (of course) this blog post's title reference. My dad (ever the camera enthusiast) has a few of these brutal numbers, in their entirety, on his video camera. I am spending the upcoming weekend with him, and plan to allow these tapes to accidentally fall into the burning fireplace. All in all, the weekend was spectacular and Tim and I were rendered speechless by Chuck and Debbie's efforts.




Tonight's Gonna Be a Good Night

"I Gotta Feeling," Black Eyed Peas

I have to agree with Thomas Jefferson: "I find friendship to be like wine, raw when new, ripened with age, the true old man's milk and restorative cordial." This sentiment seems fitting, since I spent last weekend with some of my best and oldest friends (and lots and lots of wine).

Because I have some of the best friends in the world, I went to Napa last weekend for my bachelorette party and had an incredible time. Amidst silly dances, scandalous and inappropriate gifts, and entirely too much wine, there was also the perfect amount of sentimentality, happy tears, immensely humbling speeches, bonding, and lots of laughter and happiness. My friends rented a 3-bedroom house (complete with a GREAT yard and spacious living area) and we spent one night in and one night out on the town. In between, we went wine tasting at 5 of Napa's infamous wineries: Domaine Carneros, Mumm, Girard, Peju, and Chandon. The wine was delicious, the weather picturesque, the conversation plentiful, and the friendships unparalleled. I don't know how I got so lucky, but I do know I'm so grateful.














"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival."
- C. S. Lewis

Friday, June 26, 2009

And the World We Once Believed in Will Shine Again in Grace

"Heal the World," Michael Jackson



RIP MJ 1958-2009


And on a completely unrelated note, a few excerpts from one of my all-time favorite authors. I'm re-reading portions of When You Are Engulfed In Flames right now and laughing out loud on a regular basis. I heart David Sedaris:

"Every day we're told that we live in the greatest country on earth. And it's always stated as an undeniable fact: Leos are born between July 23 and August 22, fitted queen-size sheets measure sixty by eighty inches, and America is the greatest country on earth. Having grown up with this in our ears, it's startling to realize that other countries have nationalistic slogans of their own, none of which are 'We're number two!'"

"When forced to leave my house for an extended period of time, I take my typewriter with me, and together we endure the wretchedness of passing through the X-ray scanner. The laptops roll merrily down the belt, while I’m instructed to stand aside and open my bag. To me it seems like a normal enough thing to be carrying, but the typewriter’s declining popularity arouses suspicion and I wind up eliciting the sort of reaction one might expect when traveling with a cannon.
‘It’s a typewriter,’ I say. ‘You use it to write angry letters to airport security.’

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Life Without Music: I Can't Go

"Roller Skates," Steel Pulse

My favorite song of all-time is "Mandolin Rain" by Bruce Hornsby.

In "Semi-Charmed Life," Stephen Jenkins, the lead singer of Third Eye Blind, muses "...and the four right chords can make me cry." I TOTALLY get that. I've always been a music-lover. I owe this to my parents; two music-fiends who constantly had awesome music playing in the car or on the stereo at home. While my brother and I certainly had our fair share of Sesame Street and Raffi tunes growing up, we were equally well-versed in The Eagles, Chicago, Steve Miller Band, Dire Straits, Meat Loaf, The Police, The Beach Boys, Dan Fogelberg, Starship, Van Halen, Springsteen, and Genesis. I have vivid memories (albeit, thanks to HOURS of video footage my parents valiantly logged) of my brother and I, fake guitar and drum-set in hand, RUINING Belinda Carlisle's "Heaven is a Place on Earth," George Harrison's "I Got My Mind Set on You," and Starship's "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us."

I can't remember if my first CD was Alanis Morrisette, Jagged Little Pill, or Ace of Base, Happy Nation. I do, however, clearly remember sitting cross-legged on the floor of Jen's parent's house, in 7th grade, blasting "You Oughta Know" and "Hand in My Pocket" until the CD started to skip. I remember trying to force Paul to learn the dance moves to "The Sign," CERTAIN he was going to win the Monte Vista talent show as long as my choreography could hold up. While I'd always been heavily influenced by music, these were the two CDs that shaped my junior high years-- well, these and Mariah Carey's Music Box. I definitely rocked out to "Dreamlover" and "Hero" more times than I care to admit.

In high school, I got caught up in the world of One-Hit-Wonders, and joined three CD clubs despite my parents' wishes. Within the course of a year, I was the proud owner of hundreds of CDs, MOST of which I bought for one song: Dunkin Sheik, "Barely Breathing;" The Presidents of the United States, "Lump;" Sir-Mix-a-Lot, "Jump on It;" Dog's Eye View, "Everything Falls Apart;" Dishwalla, "Counting Blue Cars;" Jars of Clay, "Flood;" Primitive Radio Gods, "Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth With Money in My Hand;" Deep Blue Something, "Breakfast at Tiffany's;" Toadies, "Possum Kingdom;" Martin Page, "In the House of Stone and Light;" The Verve Pipe, "The Freshmen," Harvey Danger, "Flagpole Sitta;" The Verve, "Bittersweet Symphony;" Eagle-Eye Cherry, "Save Tonight;" and Semisonic, "Closing Time," just to name a few...those CDs are now lost inside the confines of our littered closet.

I like to think I have pretty good taste in music, and I pride myself on (most) of my iPod's varied and unique contents. However, for about two years in high school, I caught the 'N SYNC pandemic and fell prey to every brutal advertising ploy and awful dance move the five manufactured pretty boys could throw at me. My friends and I attended five (yes, FIVE) of the gooey-pop-ridiculous spectacles masquerading as concerts. Embarrassing now, absolutely; but at the time, our goal in LIFE was to get a picture with Justin Timberlake. Meagan and Vanessa were sly enough to sneak a video camera into one show, and at the end of one of the songs Justin coyly pointed a finger directly into the video lens. Needless to say, this one shot was watched and rewound and watched AT LEAST 1,000 times before the summer was over.

Clearly, my musical tastes in high school were pathetic and humiliating, but my four saving graces (music-points-wise) during those years were Nirvana, Pearl Jam, the RENT Soundtrack, and REM. Somehow, among the shattered pieces of 'N SYNC's "Bye Bye Bye" and Skee-Lo's "I Wish," I managed to save face with these three bands. I was HOOKED on REM the second I heard "Losing My Religion," and immediately bought Out of Time, Green, Automatic for the People, Eponymous, Monster, and Murmur. I had an REM poster on my bedroom wall for most of my high school years, and viewed Michael Stipe as a musical genius. (I have a feeling he wouldn't have approved of the 'N SYNC fiasco).

In college, my brother was in a pop-punk band, and I dove head-first into the punk scene. Krissy and I easily went to 50 "punk" shows during our college days...I don't mean the more hard-core stuff like Velvet Revolver or Snapcase or Black Flag, but (among others) we saw Green Day, Blink, Sum 41, Finch, The Starting Line, Something Corporate, The Ataris, Yellowcard, Unwritten Law, Common Rider, Further Seems Forever, Saves the Day, Millencolin, Taking Back Sunday, The Early November, Thursday, Fall Out Boy, MXPX, Boxcar Racer, Jimmy Eat World, Sugarcult, Thrice, Senses Fail, The Used, Straylight Run, Alkaline Trio, AFI...MOST of these bands we saw two or three times, and I'm sure there are many others I'm forgetting. There's a feeling unlike any other, in the middle of a punk rock show, that's hard to explain. The amps are turned up so loud it's hard to focus on anything other than the beat of the music pulsing through your veins, the room is hot and people are packed like sardines; jumping and screaming and throwing limbs with reckless abandon...describing it here makes it sound awful, although it's one of the most euphoric experiences in the world.

While my college years were musically shaped by the above bands, the most influential three were Dashboard Confessional, Brand New, and New Found Glory. I saw each of these bands live at least 3 times, memorized every NUANCE to every album, and knew in which cities each were touring at any given time. After shows, I'd keep the House of Blues style wristband on for almost a week, even though it caught on the lane-line during swim practice. I wore out my copies of Brand New's Your Favorite Weapon AND Deja Entendu. To this day, I still think Brand New has some of the sharpest, darkest, most haunting lyrics I've ever heard. For example, Jesse Lacey wrote "Guernica" for his dying grandfather; the title is taken from a Picasso painting of the same title, in which the artist depicts the bombing of Spain during the Spanish Civil War, and the invariable tragedy of war/death. Sample lyrics:

If I could I would shrink myself
and sink through your skin to your blood cells
and remove whatever makes you hurt
but I am too weak to be your cure.
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.


With the exception of 'N SYNC and the one-hit-wonders brigade, I still listen to everything listed above. My favorite concert to date is The Eagles (SECOND ROW CENTER!), although Tom Petty and Jimmy Buffett are close seconds. I LOVE country music, blast all the trendy rap and hip-hop songs LOUD when they come on the radio, and can't ever turn down a Michael Jackson hit-- (this even includes "Will You Be There?") I can't imagine my life without music, and I hope I never have to...

But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
If you feel your dream is dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget you only get what you give

-New Radicals